Sitting this Dance Out

Neurology had a remarkable insight that few of us are willing to discuss. Brain-imaging shows that when we make a decision, before we have consciously decided, there actually is a light going off inside our head signaling that a decision has been made. So some institution deep inside of you knows what the "I" is bound to do in a few microseconds? Does this mean we are just sitting somewhere on a couch and dream what we think we are going through? Does this mean we have no free choice?

Well, that doesn't quite sound right. Pretty much everyone in the spiritual community agrees that there must be a free choice.  I honestly have to profess that I have no answer on this question. There is a different insight I want to share with you though. This institution, call it the "system" for the lack of a better word, knows exactly what is bound to happen to you. Maybe not over the next seven years or so, but definitely on shorter time horizon.

 I see symbols that often prepare me for what is about to happen. In the past I was eager to anticipate what lies ahead based on these signals, whereas today I just accept whatever it is that comes my way. Sure, I adjust my behavior a little accordingly, like deliberately toning it down a little when the ego would have run amok in earlier years, or drinking a little extra coffee when I know the going is likely to get a little tougher.

The problem with all spiritual powers is that we want to make use of it. When you manage to keep your ego in check and develop some spiritual powers in the process, the ego immediately wants to run with them. No, the journey home came be best described by
dancing to some music. Sometimes you follow, sometimes you lead, but always according to the beat. And when the music pauses, so will you. If you really want to return home understand that there is actually little to do. Just let the yin and yang of life do its thing. When you don't react to the demands of your ego, when you just let the pendulum swing back and forth without giving additional power to it, the movement will naturally run out of steam. Yes, I will dance when the Tao asks me to, but unless asked, I will sit out this one out.