The Light

Over the years, I have fallen in love with meditation.  It has become part of my life.  It has become the light of my life.  When I embed a habit to every part of my life, it becomes a part of me.  Whatever I am doing, as long as this meditation mode is on, light is on.  And it brings so much joy, peace, and beauty into my life.

When I just started meditation, there was so much suffering in my life.  I meditated to get peace, aliveness, and joy back to my life.  And then I was addicted to it and these spiritual highs.  Slowly, I realized that meditation is not about getting spiritual highs, it is to develop my ability to open up to life and in tune with it.  Slowly, I stop demanding  on life

The seeker is dissolving gradually.  The seeker no longer demands on life.  Instead, the seeker joins the life even though she has no idea where life is bringing her.  She is fine with that.

When I open up to life’s ups and downs, I slowly open up to my own weakness, struggles, and darkness.  When I am able to open to my own emotions, unconditional love arises in me.  Slowly, I am able to love myself unconditionally.  When I am able to love myself unconditionally, it seems natural that I can love others unconditionally.  I open up to people’s struggles and am able to accept them with their weakness and struggles.

And then one day I realize, with this unconditional love and support, every one can get back to his/her strength and stand up again.

Other benefit I get from meditation is, I become so sensitive and alert to myself.  I used to be driven by my emotions and thoughts for days, months, years, even decades without knowing what’s going on.  With meditation lights up the light in me, I can slowly spot when something is off and redirect the light over there.  As we all know, when light is on, darkness cannot prevail, which has help me to stop creating more suffering for others and myself.

Another benefit I enjoy so much is, my life basically becomes like a song.  There is rhythm in it and I just follow it along!  You discover beauty in every thing you do!  You start to appreciate every piece of your life!  You feel like celebrating it and dancing all the time!  Life is truly a blessing!

Thank you for all the sages walking in front of me and transfer this light down!  I will do the same!  Thank you!

By Suzanne Yang