Don’t shoot the messenger

 I am violent, and I don’t face it, because it’s too ugly. So, I override this feeling in the name of spirituality. Five days I go just fine and then I lose it. I get triggered out of proportion. I watch a violent movie, or I go out drinking. Then I read a spiritual book and swear to myself that I do better next time.

 

What’s going on here? It’s all self supercharged. We are love on the deepest level, but we carry interference around. Misunderstood masculinity for example, or feminism that got attacked by our male-chauvinistic society once again. We carry the pain- bodies of our parents and tribal roots with us.

 

Instead of letting go of these alien energies, we override them with our spiritual super-egos, only to watch helplessly how the pain-body erupts. Then we beat ourselves up for being weak and we aim to try harder. This is self on self on self, when in fact this self-image that we identify with doesn’t exist.

 

Don’t shoot the messenger. Let the steam erupt and watch as it happens. Watch your attempt to be nice, to be loving, to be spiritual. Realize that this spiritual image is just an even nicer version of the illusionary self. See that will-power is nothing but recycled self applied once again. 

 

Learn to let go of these pain-bodies. Feel how the energy of prior generations and national roots is buried deep inside. All the problems and obstacles that we face are opportunities to unmask this image that we have of ourselves. See the adversary and the nagging voice for who they are, part of Oneness.