She's Got a Ticket to Ride

You are the 'I', how does it help to speculate about what lies behind it? What you can do though, you can study the drives in you. My claim, there exists a cancerous force in you that wants to take you for a ride. I have seen it in myself and I work under the assumption that you are not any different from me. So I borrowed the title from a Beatle song because that's what this force reminds me off - a ride. When you are on it, you will not recognize the cancerous force, because this force will be you. But when you are at the bus station and you see the bus coming in, then mindful living allows you to understand where the journey will take you. And at that moment you have a choice to say no, not because some moral standards are telling you to, but because you have been on the ride before and you see the futility of going on another trip. Yes, the desire to go is still there, but you earned an additional degree of freedom by tearing the ticket you are holding in your hand. Just as in the song "She's got a ticket to ride, but she don't care!"

You may ask what exactly is the cancerous force, and I would have to respond that I have no clue. It takes a different form in everybody, and even general classifications such as lust, greed, ambition, jealousy, pride, worry, etc. don't really capture it. It is the moment when you realize that there is a force in you that wants to take you away from your core, and when you are on this trip it feels like this force is you. But if you are at the bus station and the bus is just coming in you have the ability to anticipate where the ride is taking you and you have the choice to say no. And after you have been to the bus station a couple of times and still decided not to go, one day you will stop going there altogether. And then you will be free.