Thursday, May 5, 2016

On Breaking Free

Everybody wants freedom as far as talking is concerned, but nobody really is free and nobody really wants to be free, because freedom brings responsibility. (Osho)

He revealed his sex addiction to a group of other afflicted, and while they had already heard a lot of sick stuff that day, his story was really a bit out there. Every other Friday, give or take, a dark cloud descended on him. He felt it around noon and by 2 pm there was no turning back. He would leave work early and would drive around aimlessly until he would find a home that looks vulnerable for entry. He slips in and hides somewhere in a closet, enjoying to be just a few feet away from the woman of the house, and while she does her housework not suspecting anything, he would masturbate watching her from the closet. After his orgasmic explosion the dark cloud would leave him. He would slip out of the house as quickly as he came, returning back to his "normal" life until the next craving would hit him.


I read this story in a book on sexual addictions and remember it so well because the addict described a trance that was literally descending on him. There was a moment when a dark cloud would engulf him, and he saw it coming. He might have had a moment of freedom in this, but once a line was crossed, there was simply no going back. He would only gain his old consciousness again after the crime of passion was committed. 


What exactly causes that dark cloud? Is it the battle of good and evil? Is it perhaps that some inner conflicts become so overwhelming that the system just snaps and a rebelling force is coming to the fore that does some nasty things? Are there old wounds that need facing, that simply pop to the surface from time to time? And specifically for us spiritual travelers, could it be that sometimes we are simply trying too hard to do what we perceive to be the "right" thing by God, only to find that we are abusing our authentic needs for so long that on a dark night of the soul all the frustration pops to the surface?


While an addiction is a degree of helplessness that few of us have experienced that way, most of us will know what a descending dark cloud is all about. Every Friday night when I come home a voice in my head whispers, "You deserve a little peace of mind. Go and open that bottle of wine and enjoy being carefree and merry". If I don't have wine in the house, the feeling of emptiness and alienation simply searches for new outlets. So I have more pizza instead, munching away to somehow make the feeling of alienation go away.


A spiritual path is a decision to embrace freedom, to be responsible for every step along the WAY. If you just say that a spiritual path must mean that you do everything that is proper by some holy book then you aren't free either. True freedom has to be understood moment by moment. We don't need to worry though, the WAY will make our chains unmistakably clear to us. And unfortunately it is our job to put them aside, no one can do that for us. Osho's remarks ring true. In some way or another, we all have been robotic in some areas of our lives. Yet, freedom is exactly what we spiritual travelers have signed up for. As they say in New Hampshire, "live free or die".

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Just Show Up

The ego is misguided. This force sees things that are objectively blown out of proportions. We literally see what we want to see and conveniently overlook the stuff that doesn't fit our world-view. Yet, there is no reason to despair. GOD implanted a quiet VOICE inside of us that sends powerful signal to our environment just as the ego does. So that life as we face it becomes an ongoing healing opportunity.

Let the ego see whatever it does; let the thoughts be tainted and the motivation of our actions be undermined. Life dances with us in a way that we can choose love every step of the WAY. We just have to become skilled at it. The holy now heals us, all we have to do is to show up in the present moment and GOD will do the rest.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Awakening to our Journey

We are a mere product of our environment and our genes; yet we can awaken to the journey we are on. What was subconscious traveling before, suddenly becomes conscious instead.

We don't need to reinvent ourselves, but merely to awaken to a spiritual mission. The WAY encourages us to make small adjustments towards a path of passion and purpose. Walking the WAY is a series of many little steps, guided by loving messengers.

Fear is unfortunately ours to face, yet every scary monster somehow deflates into nothingness once we take the first step towards it. Our boldness always gets rewarded and the imagined monsters do deflate over time.

Along the WAY the self does not need to be denied. To the contrary, it is encouraged to be expressed instead. When self, soul and SPIRIT work in in tandem, we are bound to encounter love and meaning every step of the WAY.


The WAY is designed to bring us HOME, despite some of our flaws and misguided aspirations. We are a mere product of our environment, but we awaken to the fact that our environment is somehow perfect to tell a magnificent story here and now.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Enjoying the Game of Life

Have you ever wondered why we are suffering so much even though objectively nothing really happens? Isn't it because often we get too serious about what we do or what we experience? We worry about what we own, or what we could lose, or what might happen to us. In short, we lose our playfulness.

If we are experiencing something that we label as “negative”, we want to get rid of it as soon as possible; there is no curiosity about what might come out of it instead. And if we are experience something that we label as “positive” we want to keep it forever, even though it likely would soon become boring anyhow. 

With our rigidity, with our preference for alternative scenarios, and with our impatience, we lose the chances to really taste and feel what we are experiencing. We are too lost in our mind to really appreciate what is happening here and now, and hence we lose access to this precious moment.

Observe when you become playful instead. Suddenly, you really don’t mind what will happen next. You can finally enjoy and heal from this moment.  If we don’t label everything that we experience as success or failure, will we still worry so much? 

Do you view death, disease, disability or aging a failure, or do you see it as another opportunity to experience something new? Observe how your definition influences how you feel and experience moment by moment. 

Live your life!  Enjoy whatever it is that you are going through at this moment.  Play with your life and experience everything that happens to you as is. Experiment with them and see how they evolve!  Isn’t life fun? Welcome to the game of life!

By Christian and Su Zhen

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Just Dive In

There is never a moment when the Universe is not in control. Relax! SHE got you covered. (meditationdiary.com quoted in Spiritual Networks)
Dive into new activities and challenges when life encourages you to start something new. Allow yourself a trial and error period and don't get discouraged when initially the errors exceed the successes. With this boldness you give yourself time and space to learn, creating new pathways in your brain, and developing a new network of friends and contacts by doing so. Don't give up too easily; frustrations and pain are also part of the WAY.

Boldness is a prerequisite for creativity, and creativity is necessary to follow the WAY. Every  meaningful mission can be accomplished with persistence and some divine guidance. You allow yourself a learning period, and then things will take off by itself. Same when we teach others. Stick with him as long as he always puts his best foot forward and one day runs with it.

It is said it takes 10 000 hours of practice to become a master at anything, but it is not really time that matters, it is your willingness to step into the unknown and your willingness to dive deep when a big wave rolls over you. 

The WAY occasionally points you into the unknown, but just as you walk through the fog and the darkness, SHE sends loving messengers who remind you of the WAY. Isn’t that the exciting part of life?  We spiritual travelers don’t know what’s going to happen either, but we trust HER guidance every step of the WAY.

Embrace the adventure that faces you today. It is the only way to be connected to the DAO; jumping into the waters and seeing where the current will take us. Allow yourself to explore, and see how your surroundings expand into a world beyond comprehension. Just dive in!

By Christian and Su Zhen

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Let the Results Speak for Themselves

"A philosopher is a blind man in a dark room looking for a black cat that isn't there. A theologian is the man who finds it." (H. L. Mencken, "the Sage of Baltimore")

A spiritual path cannot insulate us from pain. We also experience the same emotions that our more agnostic brothers and sisters enjoy and endure. Meaning, however, is something that every spiritual traveler can look forward to. "God is not mocked",  says "A Course in Miracles". SHE would be, if after years of divine GUIDANCE love would still leave us empty-handed. 

Many roads lead to Rome they say. Based on my own observations as a spiritual traveler all we have to do is to zoom into our life mission, put our best foot forward every step of the WAY, and let HER do the rest. Live your story, make it a beautiful one, and tell us all about it. Be the one who finds the lost cat while others do the thinking. When love is involved, GOD is bound to show you the WAY.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Create Your Story

I talk to everyone. All the time. The question is not to whom I talk, but who listens.
(God in Neale Walsch's Conversations with God)

Many spiritual travelers look for enlightenment. Well, there is good news, at least going by Neale Walsch's book Conversations with God. No point 
waiting for Godot and start listening to HER in the here and now. Maybe you find parts of HER MESSAGE in this note. Maybe you can find GOD in nature, in your surroundings or the people you talk to today.


Truth of the matter is that this world is entire self-created. Life as we perceive it is a simple reflection of who we think we are. Yet GOD, though operating outside of life as we know it, permeates everything. With 
every step we take both the self as well as our GOD connection are shining through.

Some people take this to mean that we should negate the self in order to be exposed to the SELF. While this approach may work in mathematics, that is, the negative of a negative is indeed positive, this concept falls short in spirituality. The institution that negates the self is still the self. Or put differently, putting two negatives in front of zero still doesn't give you a positive number.

Buddha had this observation shortly before reaching enlightenment. He realized that he was trying too hard. The part of him that wanted to get to enlightenment was still part of the same institution he wanted to overcome. So he tried the Way of the Middle instead, and "enlightenment" descended on him shortly thereafter.

A spiritual traveler has an amazing opportunity to meet GOD in the here and now. Everything we have ever done before, and everything that we ever experienced up to this point prepares us perfectly for following the WAY in the here and now. Zoom into your spiritual mission; mix purpose and passion and then simply have fun along the WAY. You know that you are on your spiritual path when 
self, soul and SPIRIT all rejoice. 


Create your story and enjoy every step of the WAY. With GOD as a CO-CREATOR, chances are your story will turn out to be a good one!