Monday, June 25, 2018


Babel has a negative connotation. It is the story of brothers trying to build a gateway into the sky. We weren’t ready then because our separate identities differed to much. As the story goes, all the different languages emerged as the tower came crumbling down.

I took note when I wrote out the 3 components of the holy sound OM – Satchitananda – Being—Awareness—Bliss, B A B in short. Only two letters are missing, E L —Lord’s Enlightenment. Maybe we are ready these days to try again. Spirituality has given us a common language, love.

Sunday, June 24, 2018

When you meet your demon, serve him tea

This being is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness. Some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor. Welcome and entertain them all. Even if they are a crowd of sorrows, violently sweeping your house, emptying it of its furniture. Still, treat every guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
(Rumi, Guest House)

I grew up in Berlin, Germany and recall from my childhood days many cloudy, smog-filled days. When I came to the east coast of the US as a graduate student, living right next to the ocean in Providence, RI, I couldn’t believe how many blue sky days there were. I felt transformed. Light shone with an intensity I had never experienced before. As it turns out, I am a creature of the sun. Naturally I presumed the sun was spiritually ‘superior’ until I met my spiritual friend who loves thunderstorms. Eventually, it dawned on me that it is foolish prefer one over the other. Life requires sunshine and rain!

When it comes to our shadow side we don’t see it quite that way. We want to be upbeat and we hate being depressed. We want to love, not hate. We beat ourselves up if we experience greed, lust or jealousy. After all, don’t our spiritual masters tell us that we need to let go of our ego? If they can be loving, serene and self-less, why can’t we? Dealing with the shadow side in us is tricky. We naturally look down on our personality traits that are less kosher without realizing that the judging voice in our head is the same I institution that  we want to get rid of in the first place—the ego.

I had a big break-through moment when I read that black holes are effectively the glue that keeps the galaxies together. One the one hand you could argue that they are as ‘evil’ as it gets, sucking up everything like quicksand that comes near to them, objects, planets and even stars. Yet, without them galaxies like our Milky Way or nearby Andromeda wouldn’t exist. The article went even further than that. It argued that when Andromeda and Milky Way will collide one day, thanks to to black holes this event will be a merger of star-systems rather than one massive explosion.

Why can’t we think of all the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ episodes similarly! The night when all the anger is bubbling to the surface; the fear, the aggression, the depression or the lust. We are naturally scared because we don’t want to be perceived as a werewolf, but all these grotesques looking faces are telling us that we need to be more honest with ourselves. There is something hidden in the dark corners of our Soul that we have to awaken to. Let the volcanic eruption happen, and don’t beat yourself up over it after it did. When the dust settles you have the clarity of mind to understand its message.

I once had a liberating dream. In it, a monster with demonic features was wrestling with me. He had my height, but had the muscles of a body builder. He was chasing me and threw me to the ground. Amazingly, I was not scared. With ease I could hold my ground and the calmer I got, the more agitated he became. I had met my demon and we were equals. Scary as this dream was, it was liberating in some way as it brought in the open conflicts that were previously hidden in the subconscious. I asked him what he wanted from me and his answer was ‘manliness, assertion and recognition’!

That is what is meant when we say ‘serve your demon tea’. It does not imply to act out the lust, the aggression, or to accept the depression and the fears. It simply means to shine the light on the dark corners of our Soul and discover why the longings look so grotesque on a drunk and lonely full-moon night. Just as the black-hole glues galaxies, wildfires sustain the giant Sequoia trees in California, and hurricanes refill the water supply on the east cost of the US, the perceived darkness inside also serves a higher purpose. I befriended my demon over the years, and we became allies and friends.

I was a financial market strategist around the time when the demon showed up. Assertion is something that comes with the job-description. When someone is buying and another is selling, it doesn't help either party to sit on the fence. Too long I tried to be diplomatic only to find that I upset everyone in the process. Being assertive doesn't preclude kindness. Just like removing a band-aide, simply get it done with. When investors got a straight-forward ‘yes’ or ‘no’ from me, it may have hurt for a moment if they were positioned differently, but later they would thank me it.

I spent years perfecting the lessons of the Way in a competitive business setting. There is amazing serenity and peace of mind in the present moment, even on the battle field of life. Kindness, assertion, defense, offense, and resting at the center of the circle watching the world spin. There is a natural response to every situation. The Germans have a saying, ‘no master ever fell from the sky’. Do no mind the occasional ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ episode. All it tells you that there are still more gems hidden in the depth of your being that require some searching and polishing.

It is ok to get a little scared and depressed when the demons come out on a full moon night, but realize that a priceless treasure awaits you if you are bold enough to face them. Spiritual Awakening is long spiral of births and deaths, a painful process of letting go of what no longer serves you. Awakening necessitates the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ episodes, just as a galaxy of interconnected star systems require black holes. I can also attest that facing our demons had practical benefits. Meeting my demon catapulted me in my professional career as well. When you meet your demon, serve him tea.

Saturday, June 23, 2018

The Day the Sky Opened Up

I was on my way to the park for my morning jogging exercise when I noticed a car parked next to me with a rather curious license plate combination. In addition to the month and year of registration, the numbers ended up reading 777 JC 444. In numerology this would result in 33 JC.

I remember once many years ago in a spiritual community asking for the numerical significance of 33, and someone responded that is Jesus Christ’s number. She didn’t elaborate. Later I learned that Jesus was 33 when he died—it is a historic fact that there was the blood moon on April 4, 33, as described in the Bible during his crucification.

More symbolically, it is also a fact that there are 33 vertebra along our spine. This is the distance that the energy has to travel from our root chakra to our crown chakra. The symbol of the Christ is enlightenment and transcendence, implying that Jesus was one of the few enlightened Souls who left his lower self behind and manifested his Self.

All these thoughts were running through my head as I wanted to post a little note on this subject. I was on my way to lunch when I bumped into yet another license plate 33 JC, again simplified by numerology. What were the odds? As it turned out, on this day the spiritual messages from the Course of Miracles FB community were overwhelming.

It was the day of summer solstice, 6/21/2018. Did we open some energy gateway on this day? Was it the day of the Second Coming that some predict? Time will tell, but I can honestly tell that I, and some of the spiritual friends I hang out with, where overwhelmed by the energy and the light that was streaming in.

Authenticity before Enlightenment

 "It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection.” (Bhagavad Gita)

You hear the stories of preachers who have mistresses and tell their congregation on Sundays to stay away from the seven deadly sins. You hear the stories about the gurus who write holy books about the spiritual benefits of celibacy, only to find them years later in bed with their female followers.

Don’t go down that path. It might be that your mind strives to be holy.  Do no aspire to be someone you are not. That’s not GOD’s Plan at all. The ego craves to help others (and get recognized for it). If you find ongoing resistance on the path you have chosen you might try too hard, or may have decided to live a life that isn’t yours to live.

Authenticity means that you embrace who you are; that you understand what drives and repels you. Don’t walk the path of betterment and improving; travel the journey that allows you to let go of everything that you are not. Enlightenment is being as is; when you are authentic, everything comes naturally to you, even Awakening.

Authenticity comes before enlightenment! If you feel like swearing, do so without offending anyone. If you feel called to spread the love physically, go ahead, yet don’t forget to give true love a chance as well. No one forces you to be a light-worker or sign up for an enlightenment journey. Be authentic and see where the journey takes you.

Friday, June 22, 2018

GOD is Everywhere

Every morning I help editing the message of a Tarot Card reader. It is not hard to see that these messages, while meant for the world, and her clients more specifically, are Angel messages written right for me. Every other day or so, I receive a note from my co-author that arrives just in the nick of time to provide me with a spiritual insight that catapults me on my journey yet again. Then there are the daily comments, notes and conversations I have with my spiritual friends all over the world. GOD is talking to me all the time. At home, in my spiritual community, everywhere really. When people tell me that I have to find my SELF, have to pray, have to be still, I only scratch my head and ask why exactly? I already have what I ever wanted!

GOD is with us here and now. Go and hug Her; listen to Him; celebrate the moment. GOD, while beyond this world, permeates everything and everyone. Enjoy!

Life as a Wild Ride

The past gives you an identity and the future holds the promise of salvation, of fulfillment in whatever form. Both are illusions.
(Eckhart Tolle)

We have certain expectation about how life should be. This “life should be expectation” is just made up by our mind and deviates a lot from the real life that we are having.  With this expectation, we are constantly in conflict with our real life.  We often feel threatened, annoyed, and upset about what’s going on in our life.  So we can never be happy unless we accept life as is.

The problem here is, how often can life in actuality line up with our expectations? Please be aware that this expectation is a trickster our mind has created for us, rarely to be experienced in reality.  With this mental trick in place, we can never really accept and enjoy our life to the fullest! The question here is, why do we feel threatened by life?  What is really threatened by life?

Life is a wild ride. Have the guts and honesty to accept this fact of life and see how everything can happen in this ride.  When you allow your soul to experience whatever life has to offer, suddenly, life itself becomes a fun adventure! Never mind the mental trickster, tighten your seatbelt and simply enjoy the ride!

By Su Zhen

Thursday, June 21, 2018

Enlightenment is the end of striving

Knock, and He’ll open the door.
Vanish, and He’ll make you shine like the sun.
Fall, and He’ll raise you to the Heavens.
Become nothing, and He’ll turn you into everything.

We are the elite of society,
yet, not many may knows us.
We are extraordinary,
yet, we are ordinary as they come.

Enlightenment is the end of striving;
the cessation of wanting to impress.
We are happy to educate town-halls;
we are happy to be alone with our SELF.