The Final Step

And if you find resistance strong and dedication weak, you are not ready. Don't fight yourself.
A Course in Miracles

Finding your True Self is an endless back and forth. 'Not this, not that!' You can only learn who you truly are by having both feet in life. Over and over you will be presented an opportunity to 'choose again' until something in your head clicks. All spiritual rules such as 'you are not your body', or 'avoid casual sex', can only cause frustration in you. You have to feel in your bones what is your True Self and what is not. Only life can teach you that, nobody else can.

One day something shifts in you; the ancient journey has come to an end. On that day you will feel the need to go all the way to eradicate all interference. Very much as the umbilical cord has to be cut when the baby needs to be separated from her mother, the remaining spot that stands between you and God has to be eradicated.This is the symbolically meaning of the last temptation of Jesus and Buddha. Buddha resisted sexual temptation while Jesus avoided a power trip. A final 'no' to the ego and the Kingdom of God was at hand.

The ego is you, why would you fight it? Yet after many a back and forth the 'I' separates itself from the True Self and you actually have a choice to put it away like a snake disposes of its old skin. You never need to fight or avoid anything; all you have to do is to show up in life and find out for yourself who you really are and the evidence at hand will be self-evident. There is nothing theatrical about the last step - it may just require a little wiggle and the old skin will come off by itself.