You had the power all along, my dear.
(Glinda, The Good Witch)
The 19th century Indian mystic Sri Ramakrishna once said, "Who cries for God these days!" Unfortunately we tend to think of God only when catastrophe hits us, when we find ourselves just like Arjun in the Bhagavad Gita on the battlefield of life, in a war that we don't want to fight. To our surprise, God answers then when we ask. Actually, She always does; it is just that otherwise we are too busy running after whatever it is that we think is meaningful to us, so that we neither have the time to ask, nor to listen.
Sri Ramakrishna once put is this way, when little children sit in the garden and play with their toys, Durga Maa will be happily doing something else. It is only when the boy throws down his toys and starts screaming instead, that is when She will run over.
You are a spiritual traveler and you are taught the Power of the Holy Now in your daily interactions. You have a Conservation with God every step of the Way. Life throws stuff at you and you react instinctively, "left, right, right, left", but in all this you experience the peace of the Psalm 23 traveler: "The Lord is my Shepard, I shall not want!". When the mind becomes still you just feel the connection, and you are dancing with the moment. Fear has no meaning on a spiritual path.
Along the Way, it is not your agenda that matters, it is Hers. And you have learned over and over that you don't even understand what to root for anymore. She is in charge and you simply enjoy being with Her. Keep walking - you'll get the hang of it all. And if you need some guidance, just ask. Today may well be the day when God finally answers.