Let God make you special

'Cause I gonna make you see,

there nobody else here,

no one like me.

I'm special, so special.

I gotta have some of your attention,

 give it to me!

(Brass in a Pocket, Pretenders)

It’s such a joy to be smarter than the fellow next door, or to be the home-coming queen at high school, or to have that mansion that everyone else can only dream about. You fill in the dots please. Tell me what gets your juices going, or once did. The craving of the self—just as the fear of not getting what we are all about—has a taste, has a smell, has a rush of testosterones and dopamines associated with it. You know when you are ‘on’, just as you unmistakably know when something is missing.

I remember the joy the went through me when someone in the spiritual community posted a note claiming that the old villain ‘ego’ was in fact a life force, and that trying to kill it was equivalent to suicide. Though an unpopular idea, I just knew that it was right. Everyone of us has access to a stream, and everyone of us creates a field, a garden, with it. It may not be the Garden of Eden, but it is our little accomplishment, our feeling of right and wrong, our passion expressed on the blue planet, in the time God gave us.

Awakening, with all the joys and magic it brings, also feels a little like purgatory. It’s like an engine dying on us. We still feel the old desires of being special, but we can’t express them any longer. On the other hand, we already taste and see the Garden that God has in mind for us, but we are still not quite there. We are in no-man’s-land, damned if we do, and damned if we don’t, but it’s just a little phase, a re-orientation of sorts. We get there sooner or later. God is making us special. All we have to do is show up!

The Course in Miracles promises about the state to come, ‘And you will think, in glad astonishment, that for all this you gave up nothing.’ It’s like someone pulled a lever, replacing love co-dependency with universal love, passion with enthusiasm, and fear of losing out with the knowledge of always having. The ego’s trusted allies and villains fall like dominos and are replaced with pillars of serenity, empowerment, love and fusion with the Beyond—SELF. You know when the shift into the new world is complete.

Let God make you special. What are you waiting for?