Breaking free from the cycle of good and evil

 The notorious dark night of the soul episode that happens with the regularity of the full moon cycle or comes with an evening of heavy drinking is an honest feed-back mechanism of applying misunderstood ethical norms in all the so-perceived sober moments. When we finally let loose, it’s dead energy though. What feels like passion, and what feels like being alive, is just the movement of repressed emotions that had accumulated in the depth of our being.

 

You might now feel inclined to discriminate between spiritual passions to pursue and demonic passions to avoid, but that’s not how energy works. Actually, the Latin root of the word “passion” is suffering, but we no longer associate that meaning and understand passion as something positive. The German language actually spells it out “Leidenschaft”—creates (schafft) suffering (Leiden)—but still, the word association is something positive even in German. There is actually an English word that was created to express the serene energy “enthusiastic”—inspired by God—but we tend to use both expressions synonymously.

 

I am not recommending to let the suppressed but dead energy flow as it happens in the venting practice when it happens, but I would like to point out how useless the guilt trip is if you do end up with broken China on the floor after the venting exercise. You might as well feel guilty over being too good, too faithful, or whatever else resulted in the storing up of resentful repressed energy.

 

Breaking free from this cycle of good and evil, calm and destruction, is observation. Observe when the energy flows. Feel it, sense it, know it and see it in action. “Oh, look how Judging Judy shows up again!” “Here is the repressed energy that begs to be released.” It’s a neutral position just as Switzerland had it during the European wars, but not in form of “knowing” not to participate in the struggle of good and evil, but in feeling the presence of the conflicted energies and allowing them to move as they occur. “Feel the emotion but don’t act on it!” Is as happening, not a moral dictate. The “knowing” occurs as the energy is allowed to flow.