After struggling with jet lag, last night I got up at 2 am, which would have been the former 4 am. 4 am is typically the time I get up and start working but this time my body knew that it was too early. I felt fear, no specific fear of something, but a general feeling of unease. I sat for an hour in silence and noticed how the spiritual energy in my body had moved up to my neck area. It was stuck there. Another hour went by and it had advanced to the crown chakra. That’s the spot when the writing flows, the mind is still and the heart is wide open.
Wu Hsin says we have to go through our self in order to end up before our self. What does that mean? “Before self” is an energy event. It’s a stage where there is neither understanding nor surrendering for the one who needs to understand and surrender (going through self) is not around. The inner and outer energies are perfectly aligned. Personal energy no longer interferes with Universal Energy. What is referred to as self is a conductor for life as is. The distinction between conscious and subconscious is meaningless in being.
How do we go through the self in order to end up before self? Inquire into self within the body, mind, world matrix and let this manifestation bring you the understanding and offer the opportunity for surrendering (letting go). Who knows exactly what happened in these two hours when I sat in silent meditation. The more important realization is that the sole purpose of this body, mind, world matrix is to be that portal that opens us to Universal Energy. We are “before our self” when the time is ripe. Let’s enjoy self inquiry in the meantime!
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