We are wired to pursue what we like and avoid what we dislike. The challenge is that this “institution” that fends for our happiness sees a world of make-belief and tries to override what is and creates a lot of mischief in the process.
This impostor claiming to be “me” has been around for eons and we have taken it for granted. If we try to get rid of it we are bound to face a lot of inner resistance. This entity naturally distrusts the power of Oneness and minds our claim that it is illusionary.
We can’t be aligned with the power of Oneness consistently until we have faced this interference, understood it and let go of it. There are two approaches. One, seeing the power of Oneness and two, seeing the inner interference to it.
Everyone wants to be enlightened but no one likes to do the dishes. We have that natural incline to shy away from fears and aversions and run after our desires instead. Again, we need to have the staying power to see the “f-a-d” as is.
Stoicism: maybe we sit with this fear, disappointment and restlessness without doing anything about it as some sort of punishment for the sins of our past, or simply to be someone in the eyes of the higher power that we envision to exist.
Super-ego: maybe we do all this spiritual work which includes the willingness to stand up to our fears, aversions and desires because we have the desire to get something on the other side of the imagined enlightenment state.
There is really only one solution to this problem. Face all the feelings that pop up and examine them honestly. If you are shaking in your boots full of fear, saddle up anyway. If you feel the desire to be somewhere else, hold this tension like a diamond.
Align with the power of Oneness and inquire into the nature of the inner interference and do it today or it will never happen.