Awareness of being unaware is Awareness

 The saying goes, the mind replays what the heart wants to heal. Our thoughts, feelings and the events we attract express our stored pain body, our fears and aspirations. We are always Awareness but as we dream, desire and sweat, we automatically get pulled into our instinctive reactions. In those moments, our interfering inner energy knots and outer triggers run us so to speak and our divine presence gets sucked into the storyline.

Sometimes we learn, sometimes we heal and sometimes we repeat. There are too many memories, past-life experiences and collective human energies to remove these healing opportunities one by one. The trick is to stay with the unfolding thought, feeling and occurrence until it has communicated the root cause. We see the issue flower and whither away from the beginning to the end. When we are aware of being unaware and stay with it, Awareness remains.

To Understand is to Let Go

 When I was young, I loved sports cars. Yet the moment I thought about how much they cost, I would immediately give up. Then came the next wave of thoughts: How much would maintenance cost? How much would I need to earn to afford one? One thought after another kept surfacing.

 

If I had not understood this inner process, I would never have noticed the thoughts shaping my experience. At times I followed my desire; at other times I suppressed it. On the one hand, I believed I could not afford it. On the other, I deeply wanted it. I remained caught in a state of inner conflict.

 

Desire is part of the ego’s nature. Whenever desire appears, the ego interferes—creating issues, resistance, and many forms of struggle. In practicing letting go, we must pay attention to how these struggles are formed, how they arise, and how the sense of “I” is thinking. What beliefs are operating underneath? We need to see them clearly so we can make peace with them rather than be controlled by them.

 

I do not try to get rid of these thoughts. I simply stay present with them. I do not blame them, nor do I run away from them. With this attitude, we begin to see our obstacles clearly. The tension loosens, and what was stuck begins to flow.

 

The moment we hold an intention—wanting to fix ourselves, improve ourselves, or asking, “What should I do?”—we often fall into another trap. That very intention can cause the struggle to resurface again and again.

 

By Suzhen Liu

 

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The still onlooker

 Oneness is not hard to grasp. In stillness we are part of it. What is hard is to be still when the situation requires it. A skilled meditation practitioner can fall into stillness at will but it’s a temporary fix. As the eyes open again the mind confusion returns.

What can be done? Look at the mental and emotional noise in life’s capriciousness with curiosity. We cannot force ourselves to be still but we can be a still onlooker. Muddy water turns clear when you let it settle—so does mind fog.

Where Love Begins

 When people hear that they need to go deeper in their learning, some may feel reluctant, or think,” Why should I? I’m not the one who did something wrong.”

 

The moment this thought arises, we place harmony in our relationship outside the door.

 

In intimate relationships, being “right” does not bring happiness. If we define our interactions through the lens of right and wrong, we push away true happiness and stability, and we close off genuine connection between hearts.

 

What remains then is loneliness and isolation. This is not the kind of loneliness felt when you are alone, but the kind that comes when your heart can no longer merge with the hearts of your loved ones.

 

It can also be said that when we are truly willing to explore and understand our partner relationship, it becomes one of the greatest opportunities for growth and awakening in life.

 

This realization can bring meaning and a deep sense of security to our lives. And when we reach this level of understanding, the soul naturally experiences a sense of steadiness, happiness, and joy—something the material world can never provide.

 

The core reason relationships become stuck is that we withdraw from the very beginning, and from the start we make a judgment of who is right and who is wrong.

 

Suzhen Liu

 

If you enjoy Suzhen Liu’s writings, please check out her new book, “Discover Love Within—Release Your Suffering,” available on Amazon.

 

https://www.amazon.com/Discover-Love-Within-Release-Suffering/dp/0999251732

End compulsion today

 Over the last few days there was a lot of activity on my blog on addictions and cravings. This has happened before. I figure we are at some inflection point where some people break free while others continue with their destructive patterns until the next auspicious opening occurs. 

We have always access to the portal connecting us with the higher Power. When we engage in mind numbing activities—leaving aside the body harm, alienation, neurological bondage, and waste of time, energy and money—there is an inner knowledge that knows we can do much better. We mind!

On the flip side, when we appeal to our so-perceived higher self and promise to do better in the future, there is also an inner pain body that feels overlooked and judged. That’s why there is a vicious counter-attack whenever our energy is low and the pain body comes to the surface. Breaking a compulsive habit is hard.

The Power of Admitting Our Emotions

 Sometimes we are deceived by our own ideas. We tell ourselves, “this is fine.” “Don’t be upset.” We use one thought to manage another, trying to convince ourselves to feel differently. Yet beneath all of this, the energy remains exactly as it is. No matter how much we pretend not to care, the truth is that we often do care deeply. Thoughts cannot be used to eliminate thoughts.

 

When we honestly admit our emotions, the energy can begin to move. Once it starts to flow, it can change. How deeply it changes depends on our attitude and on how willing we are to reveal ourselves. The more open we are, the deeper the transformation. But if we cannot accept one of our own weaknesses, the process of letting go will stop there.

 

We often believe that thought can overcome everything, and that effort or willpower can remove pain. But all of these attempts remain within the boundaries of “my thinking.” Real change begins when we see how our pain is formed. In that seeing, the suffering can stop—sometimes all at once.

 

Any emotion, any form of energy, can transform when it is allowed to be seen. For example, when anger arises, its expression is not simply venting. It represents an honest admission to oneself: I am angry. In that admission, attention becomes possible.

 

Then we must observe carefully: What thoughts arise as this angry energy moves?

 

“I am angry.”

What am I angry about?”

“She should not have treated me this way. I feel deeply hurt.”

As we stay with the anger and allow it to quiet down, something important happens. Quietness is essential, because in quietness there is no desire, no intention—only observation.

Then the thoughts may begin to change:

From: “How dare she treat me like this?”

To: “Please love me. Please be kind to me. Please accept me.”

 

Without this process, the energy cannot be transformed. If we deny our emotions or reject what we call negative energy, we cannot see our truth—and we cannot see love. To deny our emotions is, in a sense, to deny love itself.

 

True learning happens naturally, without force. When we fail to see our patterns and instead repress ourselves with ideas, we create the need for even more ideas to suppress the earlier ones. In this way, our energy becomes trapped in repression. But when we are willing to face these negative obstacles directly, the energy changes on its own. This is transformation at the root.

 

By Suzhen Liu

 

If you enjoy Suzhen Liu’s writings, please check out her new book, “Discover Love Within—Release Your Suffering,” available on Amazon.

 

 https://www.amazon.com/Discover-Love-Within-Release-Suffering/dp/0999251732

 

Rowing in a new direction

 I saw two images this morning on social media. One, a subway full of masked white nationalists headed for a rally and one depressed looking black woman sitting right in the middle. The other was the victory celebration by Norwegian scorer Erling Haaland who was beating the drum with his teammates and the Norwegian fan base in the stadium rowing to his beat.

I remember thinking of the Viking raids 1500 - 1000 years ago when I saw the rowing celebration for the first time. How much innocent blood was shed, especially in England, and how much suffering they in turn caused with their British Raj. I was born in Germany. My ancestors carry their fair share of blood. Yet, that Norwegian chant is fun. Soccer unites the nations more than it separates.

The boat can be used for attack and the boat can be used for travel and trade. We can’t wish or meditate away the past, but we can see through its illusionary nature. We call ourselves human beings for a reason. With one foot in his(her)story, the other in the transcendent dimension. The higher Power is happy to channel creation through our nature without the need for us to stand in the Way.

Let’s row in a new direction.