Sexual Energy

That which at first is like poison, but at last like nectar - It is the happiness, arising from the serenity of one's own mind.
(Bhagavad Gita)

I remember having as a child a lot of sinus issues. I think I was stuffed up most of my childhood. Whether it was the polluted Berlin air, or just a symbolic expression that the real me hadn't shown up yet, I don't know. But I vividly remember the feeling of one day waking up a few years ago and I could finally breath freely from that day on. They say that breathing has a deep spiritual function besides providing the oxygen. They also say that the word Atman - our God-connection in Hindi - has the same root as the German word 'atmen', to breathe.

 I also observed something else around that time of breaking free, I felt a presence of sexual energy that I had never experienced before. It is as if the whole system just cleared up one day, allowing the free-flow of chi and a lot more sexual energy was pumping through the system. The chacras start in the lower body and the chi energy works itself up until it finally reaches the forehead. This process takes a while and in the interim you feel that sexual abstinence feels like poison. I am not saying sexual abstinence is necessary along a spiritual path but it nevertheless has been my choice since  I just couldn't handle the drop of energy after each ejaculation any more. It might be like poison to do nothing about your activated sexual energy, but before you know it your higher chacras will kick in and the free-flowing chi will bring serenity, peace and bliss with it. You will drink the divine nectar before you know it, enjoy!