Sexual Energy

That which at first is like poison, but at last like nectar - It is the happiness, arising from the serenity of one's own mind.
(Bhagavad Gita)

I remember having as a child a lot of sinus issues. I think I was stuffed up most of my childhood. Whether it was the polluted Berlin air, or just a symbolic expression that the real me hadn't shown up yet, I don't know. But I vividly remember the feeling of one day waking up a few years ago and I could finally breath freely from that day on. They say that breathing has a deep spiritual function besides providing the oxygen. They also say that the word Atman - our God-connection in Hindi - has the same root as the German word 'atmen', to breathe.

 I also observed something else around that time of breaking free, I felt a presence of sexual energy that I had never experienced before. It is as if the whole system just cleared up one day, allowing the free-flow of chi and a lot more sexual energy was pumping through the system. The chacras start in the lower body and the chi energy works itself up until it finally reaches the forehead. This process takes a while and in the interim you feel that sexual abstinence feels like poison. I am not saying sexual abstinence is necessary along a spiritual path but it nevertheless has been my choice since  I just couldn't handle the drop of energy after each ejaculation any more. It might be like poison to do nothing about your activated sexual energy, but before you know it your higher chacras will kick in and the free-flowing chi will bring serenity, peace and bliss with it. You will drink the divine nectar before you know it, enjoy!

Disturbances

I think that we spiritual path travelers have one advantage over the ordinary folks: it appears that the time span between everything we do and the consequence of our own action is collapsing. Remember the story of the elephant and the driver from yesterday? Well, the problem that we are facing is that the rewards of "good" behaviour are often not visible to us, so our passions have an eye on the cookie jar, i.e. the elephant is in charge with little room for the driver to maneuver. But what if you could always feel immediately the cost of an action? Wouldn't that make it more likely that you do what is in the end best for you?

My hunch is that this is exactly what is going on when we are on a spiritual path. Just based on my experience, the further you venture along your Tao, the higher the energy vibrations of your entire system. The Law of Attraction becomes more and more powerful as all drives inside yourself, your conscious as well as your subconscious ones start lining up. When you do a harmful action you face its consequences immediately as your energy level is dropping. The world that you have built for yourself starts imploding until your energy is returning to you. Is is hard not to do the right thing if that process is in place; wouldn't you agree?