There is a million reasons why I should give you up. But the heart wants what it wants. (Salema Gomez, The Hearts Wants what it Wants)
Taylor Swift exclaims with a lot of of pleasure and a little bit of pain in Blank Space, "Oh my God, look at that face, you look like my next mistake." In a Taylor-like fashion, there is incredible wisdom and insight buried in that simple statement. Our soul has longings that need to be expressed. If you shy away from your passions because you frown on them or because of previous hurts, you only delay what comes your way anyway. Life has a habit of catching up with what truly matters to you.
Often we start this passionate journey with much open excitement as well as some lingering heaviness because we still remember the broken China on the floor when we tried the same adventure last time around. Perhaps we succeed this time, perhaps we fail again, but the lure of what we see and the longings of our heart are simply too strong to pass on this opportunity. We have to follow our passions because - I would argue - that is the only way to get anywhere on a spiritual journey.
We are on a journey of magnetism and it our mission to let it wear off as we transition our energy centers. Once you have really shared a life with a soul sibling your magnetism changes. Amazingly, your sensitivity to what is rises as life removes your blinders. Only life can do that for you; if you you withdraw to the Himalayas you are only escaping from what truly matters to you. Don't sweat your spiritual path, just let happen what has to happen anyway. The heart gets what it wants.