Embracing Abundance—A Family Energy release of scarcity

 I remember my father’s generosity when I was young. It was out of this world. Yet, a bi-polar disease overtook him when he was in his early 50s. When in depression he shut down and was afraid of everything, and in the few days when he was exuberant, he wasted his money on meaningless stuff that he had so carefully saved in the weeks and months in depression before.

 

I knew that facing the father’s family side would be tough when I signed up for the Family Energy Workshop hosted by Suzhen Liu and translated and led by Suzanne Yang. Sure enough, the morning of the talk started with a feeling of scarcity. The seminar zoom link didn’t work properly, and just before the meeting started my wife handed me a parking ticket that I apparently got the night before. The well-familiar depression engulfed me as I opened up to my dad’s energy, but I didn’t mind either. In the session we had to pick a representative displaying his presence. It was a chess board. He played this game day and night, mostly with himself.

 

During the meditation I felt the need to add a posted note to the board, so I wrote down his birth year 1932 and put it on the board. Suddenly it struck me, he was born at the height of the global depression! I also remembered that his grandfather had land property that he sold for cash, and it all got lost in the hyperinflation after WWI. As we bowed to the dad’s representative, I remembered that my dad had a thyroid disease when young that required operation; he grew up as a teenager in war-torn Berlin in WWII and lost both his parents when he was a student. For the first time I realized what kind of fears he was exposed to and it struck me what an incredible achievement it had been to grow into this kind, intelligent and generous dad who raised me. He was a family judge and was probably not emotionally equipped to handle the work stress and that’s when the bi-polar disease struck.

 

Suzhen Liu concluded her meditation with the image that we should picture standing with him and his family to look at the place we came from—the mountains, the oceans, the earth. I stood there holding hands with them but also with our oldest son who reminds me of him whenever I see his self-confident smile. I doubt we can leave the family ghosts behind in a single session but my respect for my dad grew immensely during this session and I pledged to continue what I have practiced for many years already. Face the feeling of fear and scarcity and look right through it. We are from abundance, we shall return to abundance and have the birthright to embrace abundance in our daily living. Thank you Papa for having launched me on this amazing spiritual journey!