The evolution of spiritual energies

 When my Awakening happened, I discovered what can be best described as the Dao—a mystical world opens up that somehow does not seem to be visible to everyone, yet it is in plain sight (Dao from Lao-Tzu’s Tao Te Ching). There was a honeymoon period, a riding of higher energies, that seemed to last a couple of years. A bit later, amidst the spiritual highs, I also become aware of occasional depressions. Those seemed to be the dark night of the soul episodes that everyone talks about. I faced them as best as I could and felt that I was steadily learning more about myself.

 

Today I would describe the 3 D that most awakened folks are bound to experience: depression, drive and the Dao. Once we encounter the higher energies we cannot go back. The higher energies shine as brightly today as the the first day. Yet, there is a little work to do to make this Garden of Eden consistent. We are on a demolition course of eons of conditioning. Letting go of them requires conscious work. These days I immediately realize when a sad or conflicted energy hits me rather than projecting it away. Likewise, I have also learnt that many of my perceived drives are also projections.

 

The Bhagavad Gita describes three energies, tamas—the conflicted and depressed energy—rajas, the passionate and driven energy, and sattva—the serene energy. We evolve from the lower to the higher energy in our spiritual evolution. My advice would be to honor and face each energy to the best of our abilities and be mindful of not telling convenient spiritual stories in order to brush the inconvenient truth under the rug. How easy it is to convince ourselves that these dark energies that we face need to be fought rather than to be faced, and that our passion is always spiritual in nature.

 

This week I felt fear. I haven’t experienced that in a long time. Awakening does have its noticeable benefits. I sat with it for a couple of hours without doing anything about it, just sat with it and watched. After a while I felt the well-familiar humming sound in the crown chakra and the fear was gone for good. For me that’s what spiritual progress is all about, a natural upgrade of the energies from depression and drive to the serene. On the flip side, the drive that I was once so proud of is gone too. These days when I start a book project, I have to wait for the flow to kick in rather than willing an outcome.

 

It does get easier over time, but we have to be mindful of all the blind spots that we carry around. The earlier we awake to the holes in our convenient spiritual story the better. Let’s accept that we are human like everyone else and be grateful for the Grace we already received. A little effort is necessary until we realize that the journey is effortless. May your path be blessed!