Hazy Personal Insights

J. Krishnamurti had strong opinions on the subject time: have the insight about yourself here and now, he used to say, do not get fooled by the notion that time will be on your side.

I have always admired J. Krishnamurti's clarity of thinking and have experienced a few lucid moments myself during which a light bulb went off in my head and the 'I' was transformed in the process. Still, in my experience there is also a separate path which is time dependent: it is a stumbling along a dark and cloudy road almost despite yourself.

I happen to be a hobby psychologist and have read many stories of people who rewire themselves with the help of the therapist. An early childhood experience, or another traumatic episode transformed the 'I' of the patient and has to be bent back to its original state. When you listen to their experience you can literally feel the haze surrounding them. It is only the faith in the therapist that makes them continue on their painful journey.

On my spiritual journey I am always on the lookout for perfect synchronicity. If something doesn't line up, I try to reposition myself until I am in the flow again. This process can at times be confusing, but I trust that in time important personal insights will be revealed. Perhaps time is on your side after all.