Brother, the war against your
self is almost over.
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Describing the shadow self
is exactly like describing the ego, it is perhaps possible for you to identify
the war that is going on inside, but it is pretty much impossible to communicate
it in a way that is meaningful to people who don't share your problems. We all
think that we are sitting on our own island, that we have our idiosyncratic
problems when in fact we all face the same struggle; yet, each problem is
carefully dressed in different clothes, so it is impossible to grasp what your
soul sister is going through at the same time.
You probably feel that
there are some impurities inside yourself that are holding you back from
experiencing who you truly are. If you are a Tao traveler, it is probably
dawning on you that you are on a journey through the darkness into the light.
Your destination is wholeness and holiness, the only question is how will you
get there. I hope that this note can help you in finishing the last steps of
your journey home.
The facets of the different shadow personalities are
numerous. You may struggle with hidden aggressions, or you may secretly attack
yourself. You may be driven to be a best selling spiritual author or you may be
an endless worrier. You may struggle with compulsive behaviors or you may have
prince charming fantasies. It doesn't matter what it is, step one in the process
is to acknowledge that there is something off and step two is to do something
about it. The Tao will make everything as simple as 1 2 3 for you. In step 3 you
will have incorporated all aspects of your personality in a wholesome way and
you will experience an energy supply and a connectedness which are multiples of
where you are today.
Tolerance for pain may be high, but it is not
without limits. Eventually everyone begins to recognize that there must be a
better way.
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Tao travelers are not any "better"
than other people, we are all children of God. What is different though, we are
suddenly given the chance of putting the pieces of the divine puzzle together.
The laws of cause and effects become visible for us in real life. It seems that
time and space "shrinks" for us. For all other folks the effects of karma are
hard to study because cause and effect come in different stages of their lives
and in different situations, so it is close to impossible to put the pieces
together. A Tao traveler can see pretty much immediately when the Law of Oneness
is violated. For example, I have a latent ear infection. Whenever I allow any
impurities in my life, my ear infection is immediately acting up, without fail.
This is not God punishing me for what I may or may not have done. This my
subconscious being in rage over the situation. After a day or two the disease
disappears just the way it came. It is actually fun if you can put the pieces
together with little symbolic acts like this one.
A Tao traveler will
also go through enormous energy fluctuations which you probably have never
experienced that way before. The reason is that your energy centers are opening
up, so you experience a surge in energy and you also likely live your life with
an intensity that you have never done before. But this also means that
impurities will now hit you with the impact of a sledge hammer. You literally
feel like dying when that happens and this is the stage when you will finally
muster the will-power and the resolve to take the last step. Actually, these
"down-phases" also used to happen in the past, but you projected your pain onto
the "villains" in your movie plot and felt much happier that way. Today you
internalize everything that happens in your life and that brings a new intensity
of pain with it. Be glad when you have reached that level of spiritual maturity.
Life is really simple that way - if it is you who is causing this pain just use
the key that you hold in your hands - cut all impurities out of your life and
experience eternal bliss afterwards.
The aspects that need solving do not
change, whatever form the problem seems to take. It will recur and then recur
again until it is solved forever.
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Do not wish
your dark side away. This aspect of yourself that thus far you have safely swept
under the carpet defines you whether you like it or not. All you have to do is
to accept your internal tension and express it in a creative way without
undermining your spiritual path. Also, let not anyone but the Tao tell you how
your path is supposed to look like. Some spiritual travelers eat meat, some have
sex, some work in competitive industries. You define for yourself what you need
to get accomplished on your journey. Lord Krishna showed Arjun the path to
enlightenment on the battle-field in the Bhagavad Gita. Who knows what demons
you have to conquer before you can come home, only you and the Tao can be the
judge of that.
Value your internal pressure and see how in time the ugly
piece of coal is transformed into a sparkling diamond. Let the problem at hand
define the person you were born to be. Honor your problem. You will like the way
you look after your transformation is done. Sure, it may be hard work, and it
may be scary at times, but then, what choice do you really have?
The Holy
Spirit will not deprive you of your special relationship but would transform
them.
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Who knows why you chosen the path that got
you to this stage. Perhaps you have fallen in love with your partner because of
some of your not-so-holy desires. Perhaps your best buddy at work has been
carefully chosen by you because he can get you that promotion you have always
aspired. Do not question the path that got you here, trust instead that it is in
you to heal all your motives in time so that you converge with the path of love.
The same applies to all the people you interact with. They have signed up for
this healing course together with you. Some of your friends may disappear and
some new ones might come. Trust that you are in fact in a perfect environment to
grow spiritually and see all previous impurities melt away with the help of your
soul siblings.
If you find resistance strong and dedication weak you are
not ready. Do not fight yourself.
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Spiritual path
travelers have a big super ego. We have seen Jesus' resolve in dealing with his
temptations and Buddha's wisdom and will-power to withstand his. Yet, Buddha
spent many years experimenting with his psychological issues, while little is
known about Jesus soul-searching process prior to his trip to the desert. When
you see a lot of back and forth in your effort to cut out impurities stop and
see whether there is anything you can do differently. I spent a lot of time with
my compulsive habits cycling back and forth and beating myself up over them
afterwards until I made it a conscious effort to experiment with them instead.
You can study the change in your energy level, you can see how the environment
reacts to you. Make an experiment out of your struggle and see that the Tao is
always there for you. Only you can shut down your energy centers, the Tao will
always have a welcoming hand stretched out to you no matter what you do. You
will find your way to gain wholeness and on this day you will have exactly the
same resolve and will-power as Jesus and Buddha had when say said good-by to
their internal struggles. It must dawn on you that you are them,
right?
Buddha allegedly once said: "The good things, do them - the bad
ones, don't." In the end it will be as easy as that, but until you get to that
stage, first find out why Mr. Hyde always pops out just when Dr. Jekyll declared
that he will now be good for good. Run your dark experiments. What unresolved
psychological issues have you still safely stored away? Let the Tao teach you
what aspects of your personality you haven't acknowledged yet. Shadow work is a
process. Do not be afraid to look into the dark corners of your being. Your hard
work and your boldness to confront your dark self will pay off. Wholeness and
holiness are waiting for you.
You must choose between total freedom and
total bondage, for there is no alternative but these.
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Miracles
I found the answer to all my struggles in this sentence. If you
read books on compulsive behaviors and addictions and you will without fail hear
about the "trance state". A little external trigger and you experience how your
mind is shutting down on you. You can experience this for yourself so clearly.
The alcoholic standing in front of the liquor cabinet on a day when his wife is
on a business trip while he had a hard day at work may still have a choice. Once
the wine bottle is open he no longer does. Once the trance has settled in you
will only wake up when the broken China is on the floor.
It is
fascinating to watch how all compulsive habits are an escape from freedom. You
can also study how the impact of giving in to temptations yet again will linger
with you for many days. The day after giving in to the temptation will look
different to you than the day before. Afterwards you will have to exert lots of
energy to pull yourself out of the hole again. Experiment with your habits with
the 21 day rule. Declare yourself mentally insane for 21 days after you have
given in to temptation and use your will-power to stay away from your compulsive
behavior over this time period. They say that it takes that long for our
subconscious system to over-ride a new program. Experience how you are literally
a different person with each passing day. If you want to run your dark
experiment again after having made it through this ordeal, go right ahead. I
promise you will get tired of these iterations sooner rather than
later.
An escape from freedom is an absolute no-no to every spiritual
traveler. The whole aim of our journey is the opposite, a path towards freedom
of choice in everything we do. I have found that it is quite refreshing to
experience the "trance state" associated with a compulsive behavior at least
once. Afterwards you will do whatever is in your power to liberate yourself from
it. When it comes to spirituality, whenever there is a will, there is a
way.
When it comes to addictions and compulsive behaviors, the "ordinary
folks" want to have their old life back. They want to function normally the way
they did before, free of these attacks of compulsion whether they be sex,
gambling, substance abuse, alcoholism, shopping, depending on others, working,
or whatever else people can get addicted to. The Tao traveler is in a very
different position. Once your spiritual path starts in earnest you will never
get your old life back. Instead, you will be going through a divine
synchronization and refinement process until all that is left is a sparkling
diamond.
Delay will hurt you now more than before, only because you
realize it is delay, and that escape from pain is really possible.
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in Miracles
Addictions show you in the extreme that there is no
alternative. There is either a journey into the darkness or into the light and
nothing in-between. The "ordinary folks" might be able to coexist in different
states of consciousness for decades, for the Tao traveler it is an either or. In
fact, the Tao travelers will learn to be in each aspect of their lives, family,
hobby, work and spiritual, to be always the same person. And in every aspect
they are headed into the light. You know what you have to do in order to cut the
pain out of your system. Just cut out each and every impurity, one by one.
Be never fearful of temptation, but see it as another chance to choose
again.
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There is no need to be afraid of
temptations. They will lead you home. Take a step to the right and learn, take a
step to the left and gain wholeness. You cannot make a mistake. You will soon
learn that you are on a spiral that experiences smaller and smaller oscillations
with every step that you take. In the limit there is only peace, joy, love and
power.
In this world you can become a spotless mirror in which the
Holiness of your Creator shines forth from you to all around you.
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in Miracles
Every impurity will be washed away. That is the way of the
Tao. Wholeness means holiness, but the way towards getting there may not be
waiting for divine inspiration. The difference between spirituality and religion
is one of time. You will converge with the holy notions our religions hold and
you will get there by holding on to life, not faith. The way towards holiness
may well be by exploring your dark side until you have managed to incorporate it
into your spiritual being.
When you are weary, remember you have hurt
yourself.
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Pain can be a great teacher, as can
exuberance. The spiral will converge to a single point full of peace, joy, love
and power. Let the years be judge whether you are converging with Heaven on
earth. Look out to the Tao - She will teach you everything that you need to
learn on your journey home.
Nothing real can be threatened,
nothing
unreal exists.
Herein lies the Peace of God.
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Miracles
There is nothing to regret and nothing to fear. Just finish
your journey today and enjoy God's peace. She is waiting for
you.
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