I'll spread my wings and I learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
make a change, and breakaway!
(Kelly Clarkson, Breakaway)
I wrote this shadow note in 2012 and experienced a break-through moment with it, though the internal conflict was by no means gone. Three years later I thought I could re-distribute it with just a few edits. Spiritual travelers struggle with their dark side for the very reason that they look down on their not-so-kosher desires, while many ordinary folks may have the same hang-ups but they simply accept them and go and run with them. We simply can't. Our energy centers change and stuff that used to work for us in the past simply doesn't anymore. We could sit there and complain about the conflict inside - and often we do - but in the end there is only one way that remains for us, forward.
Brother, the war against your self is almost over. (A Course in Miracles)
Given that we started this Path and we have come so far, there is no turning back now. Let's take the last step and be free.