Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destiny of others. You must either learn to carry the universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors.
I feel stressed at work. I hate the fear of making forecasts about unknowable events. As an introvert, I feel burdened by all the endless interactions. I mind all the little hurts, the mistakes, and the missed opportunities. But then, the other day I was looking into the mirror at work, expecting to see an old, haggard, burnt-out face to look back at me, only to find the opposite: a smiling, almost reckless looking young man.
Just because it seems to you that you carry the universe doesn't mean that your soul sees it the same way. Sometimes we think that the life we are living is hard, sometimes we feel like we are running into walls. Yet, if the feedback we are receiving is positive, then why not proceed? We know so little. Our soul may be on a mission that we only understand retroactively. As far as today is concerned, you may just have to plunge in and let Her do Her thing, whether you like it or not.