But then, every child is different and has different needs. One of my boys has autism. He demands lots of my attention. Even then, I didn't spend much time thinking how to teach him or treat him. I somehow thought he would turn out just fine without my effort.
It wasn't until recently that - out of a sudden - I realized how much time my parents actually devoted to raise us. I never really understood how much effort it takes to be a caretaker because I always had helpers and tutors to share all these responsibility with me. I somehow didn't realize that just to provide children with healthy food and a safe environment takes lots of work; I didn't quite appreciate how much determination, hard work and love it takes. It was only in the time when I mostly did everything myself that I realized how much love and effort goes into raising children.
The amazing thing is, when I devote myself to this job as mother, I suddenly connect with my mother and realize how much effort she made to raise us. And now I understand what a misunderstanding I had before! We siblings all turn out great because of her tremendous effort. She is great!
I love you, my dear mother! Thank you for giving me this precious life! I will do something great as well to honor your effort! Thank You!
By Su Zhen