"Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex; But eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds; stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories and make peace with them." -- Iyanla Vanzant
A pain body is stuck energy that we have accumulated for a long time. If you want to observe your own pain body, you can even sense this field when it is activated. In this negative energy field all kind of stuff is accumulated, such as memories or emotions that didn't get discharged when they happened. They linger in you. When something similar happens to you, this energy field is activated. You can simply observe how you deal with this energy that suddenly bursts to the surface. Examples in this direction could be ...
- when you feel angry when someone pinches your pain body, and you witness helplessly how you cut him to pieces and feel afterwards bad about it.
- when you feel sad, do you cry or do you feel numb?
- when you feel anxious, do you do deep breathing exercises or do you run around like a headless chicken?
We can observe how we deal with different emotional states and see if we adjust in any way when they show up next time. Are we just like robot and always respond in the same way? Do we change when we observe that the inner robot gets activated?
A robot response just means that we are driven by the emotions of the past. Our system literally shuts down and we go on auto-pilot. Over time this energy field becomes so large that whenever it is activated, we can basically observe that we are no longer ourself. We are driven and controlled by outside forces. When the dark cloud has finally passed, we cannot help wondering what exactly has happened to us.
Try to be aware of your pain body and stay present when it is activated. Observe and sense all the pain that is flowing through you at this moment. Allow that movement for that is the only way to dissolve it. If you really allow it to flow through you, you can sense how the energy field is changing forms, from anger to sadness and finally peace.
Why don’t you give it a try? What choice do you have anyway!
By Christian and Su Zhen