Have you ever observed how you talk to yourself? Did you notice that there is a voice inside that often despises what it thinks it perceives, and attacks you over it. You must have noticed how this voice has always a flaw to find when it comes to your body and your appearance. Have you observed how you talk to yourself and about others in your head when something negative happens to you?
There is a “self” that is constantly attacking, judging, and getting upset about life's events, our appearance, or whatever else it is our head comes up with. There are the aspirations, fantasies and ill-wishes to the ones we don't care about. There also is the suppressed stuff that is harder to dig up because we are too embarrassed to admit these things even to ourselves.
This ego comments and judges constantly; it schemes, wishes and fantasizes. There is absolutely nothing that we can do about it. The institution that wants to be better, wants to be spiritual and enlightened is cut out of the same wood.This ego has lots of suffering and will always have. Yet, there is also an awareness of all this, and there are the lesson learned what happens when we give into it. This awareness simply is.
Just be! Realize the movie plot you are embedded in and don't make it real. Shine away the darkness and just be!
By Christian and Su Zhen