Sometimes I ask myself, am I really truthful in my books and some of my more upbeat posts when I describe Awakening as this mind-blowing experience. After all, what about the many hours when ‘ennui’ reigns and we just sit there, waiting for it to pass just like a storms-cloud. Perhaps I can put it this way, Awakening is just like having children. There might be some rough spots in-between where you asked yourself, ‘what have I signed up for?,’ but at the end of the day you wouldn’t have it any other way.
I remember a funny experience with our pediatrician when our oldest was a little toddler. I complained that I experienced his third year harder than the so-called ‘terrible twos,’ to which he replied that the ‘terrible twos’ were overrated; it should be ‘terrible three’ instead. After a year I again complained about something, and launched into the same speech but I stopped him, reminding him that he played the same game with me last year. He laughed, ‘Well, had I told you the truth, would you have had your second boy?’
Twelve years later I have only positive childhood memories. I don’t remember what these supposed trouble spots were about, but I do remember this funny pediatrician anecdote. Maybe his advice describes my role as a spiritual writer as well. Of course we need to tell everyone about the Awakening aches and pains, but you do not have no choice but to face them anyway so why to make a big deal out of it. The Awakening process once started cannot be reversed. Our memory is strange that way, compared to the light that we experience, these dark night of the soul episodes seem not such a big deal.
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