Worse is better comrade

 A “person” is a meet-up of higher energies that are not person-specific and the conditioning of countless generation that is somehow amalgamated into an experience of “I”. A spiritual quest is the conscious undoing of this artificial, man-made structure. Awakening gives us a glimpse of these ever-prevailing higher energies, but more often than not, we are pulled back by our own conditioning and that of countless generations before us. It’s not hard to see that life conspires to strip us of these lower energies.

With Awakening comes a new set of identifications. Suddenly the loved ones of the old days don’t get the new us. Now romantic partnerships arise, often difficult ones, that are rooted in this new spiritual understanding (“twin flames”). Our sense of purpose changes, but we still have it. Inner conflicts are exposed even stronger than before. We become aware of our own spiritual by-passing after having been blind sighted by it. Dark nights of the soul are dark, and we sometimes fall in love with our newly acquired talents.

 

There is that mind-made understanding in the spiritual community that we walk into heaven in a straight line. Mooji had a talk on that where he described a nice girl complaining that for her things are seemingly getting worse rather than better. “I have always been a good person”, she said, “but Mooji, I am not!” She described an incident of road rage where she was set on taking on a truck in her little car that was blocking her road. Progress is non-linear, even for us spiritual folks. Keep putting your best foot forward.

 

The identification with body, mind and world is the issue. We have to be made aware of the power to step consciously out of it. It’s an insight—a seeing, sensing, feeling, tasting and knowing of attachment. It has to happen from one moment to the next, otherwise we will just keep adjusting our identifications and will tell ourselves the convenient story that we are taking the stairways to heaven. How to get there exactly? Don’t worry, life will take you right up to the aha moment that it is time to let go.