If you like to follow the Tao and get away from the
control of your ego, your ability to be mindful of everything that is going on
inside of you is key. So what exactly does it entail to be able to observe
yourself?
Observation is the ability to detach yourself from everything
that you are doing and, at the same time, be able to observe everything that is
going on within you and in the environment that you are operating in. It is very
much like you are watching a movie of yourself, but you are sitting in the
audience at the same time. In the beginning you will probably get involved
quite frequently, so you will be the actor on many occasions and the spectator
in others, but that is ok too. Never try to force anything or your ability to
observe will disappear.
You probably spend time analyzing how other
people behave; you analyze their mistakes, or why they behave the way to do. But
at the same time, have you ever thought that you can apply the same
methodology to yourself? If you observe yourself carefully, you will realize
many things about yourself, know the reason why you are getting stuck in some
cases, find out why you experience these emotional swings and understand why it
is so hard to quit some of your habits.
When you are observing yourself,
you actually get in touch with your spiritual consciousness, and you will
discover a universal healing power. Under your observation, you will learn how
to step back and will have a shot at overcoming your robotic responses to your
environment. Once you reach that stage, 'karma' will no longer stick to you and
you will learn how to set yourself free. Awareness is a very powerful healing
force.
When you observe, naturally, you will realize many things. For
example, it is very common that we are triggered to react in a certain way when
we are interacting with other peoples or when we are in special circumstances. We get mad when people say something that doesn't meet our
expectation. Without this understanding, we are just carried away by our
emotions without the ability to grasp what is behind all these dramas. We think
that we have good reasons to be mad at others and blame them for our suffering.
In doing so, we cut into our own power base - by losing control, we become the
slaves of our emotions. The good news is that we can spot these points when we
lose control and respond before the emotional train risks leaving the station
for good. In fact, if you can transcend these moments, you will see for yourself
that you can save a lot of money on antidepressants and anti-anxiety pills that way.
There are little tricks to get to this
level of mastery. For example, you can look out for the moments when you have a
strong emotional reaction to something and you can literally hear a voice
kicking in and saying 'Hey, I am being emotional again - what's going on here?'
In these cases, give yourself a time-out. Go to a quiet place and be with that
emotion; feel how this emotion is influencing your body and what kind of
thoughts you have. If you are really able to connect with your inner state, you
will be surprised to realize how mechanical your emotional reactions always are
in response to some pretty straight-forward triggers; you will be also be
surprised to see how your emotions are transformed under your observation. Once
the shock of the emotional swing has been digested, you will see for yourself
that all you are left with are joy, love, peace, and understanding.
There
are some ways to train yourself to raise your level of awareness:
1.
Meditation: Regular meditation can really help you practicing your observation
skills. Set a time every day aside for 10 minutes, sit still and watch whatever
thought or emotion arises, the noises, the aches from the body, the thoughts
rising to the surface. It is an observation without judgement. In the same way,
learn to receive whatever comes your way in life without judgement.
2.
Mindful living: Observe how you eat, what is the smell of the food, how does it
taste and how fast or slowly you eat. Notice how your system digests the food
and how your energy level is changing in response. Observe how you walk. Can
you tell how your leg and feet coordinate when you walk? Observe everything that
comes your way in that fashion.
3. Doing exercise might be a good
practice as well. Just as you build muscle strength when you exercise, you can
develop mind power when you do your awareness exercises. Can you be aware of all
your body parts as you exercise them?
Once you are very skilled in
observing yourself, it will be very easy for you to understand what is going
on inside yourself. It is a process to get to this level of mastery, but every
situation and interaction that comes your way is a new opportunity to practice.
You have a chance to say good-by to the robot inside, and you will quit being a
victim of your environment. At this point you will become a creator of your
reality and stop being a follower. Soon you will learn that along the Tao there
is nothing really that can give you an excuse for being grumpy about. Instead,
you are grateful for whatever it is that is coming your way - your life is
blessed after this realization.
By Sue Zhen